River of Blood
"How’s it going? I heard the heating went out last night."
"Let me do this. It’s February 14, 2016, uhhh… 9:45am at Waco County Detention. I’m Agent Aaron Bonner. I’m interviewing Sean Michael Tower. So you’re okay?"
“Ever think about it? Suicide?”
“Why do people ask that question? The answer is always yes. Like every time. The whole planet by age 10 answers yes. ”
“That’s not a no.”
“Tower, I am not currently considering taking my life.”
“Okay. I believe you. I just worry about you.”
“I believe you. And I worry about you.”
“Do I seem depressed?"
“Do you have to be depressed? I mean, you think there are some really happy people with everything going for them who just think, this it, I might as well jump?”
“Pretty sure that’s a Van Halen song.”
“Fuck those guys.”
“They’ve lived too long.”
“Let’s kill one of them.”
“But who do you choose? It’s impossible.”
“Easy. All of them except the bass player.”
“Michael Anthony lives. Seriously, though, I’ve thought about it. I had my nihilistic moments out there when I was a baby. The one thing I always boiled it down to was the fact that regardless of all the variables and the chaos, something is going to happen in the next moment and then something else is going to happen in the very next moment. Even when the world is kicking me in the teeth, there’s always a certain gallows humor in challenging the chaos to throw something even more fucked up at me. ”
“You are making me want to kill myself.”
"So you're willing to compromise peoples' lives for the sake of anarchism?"
"Well, how many lives has capitalism and communism and democracy blah, blah, blah compromised? We're doing better than most. And whose lives are we talking about? I agree with you that it's complicated. We disagree on the mechanics of the complication.."