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I have worked as a fright car carman/welder for approximately seven and a half years. When I began, I was technically just a welder. I performed structural repairs on the bodies of the cars though my main job involved cutting and welding the inspection ports on tank cars for the purpose of qualifying the tanks for continued service. Today I have one those cushy union protected inspection positions. I still perform a bit of welding but nothing compared to when I first began. Those early days taught me all the rules and regulations I needed to know to perform the safety inspections on trains before their departures. Most of the railway companies ignore a large percentage of these rules and gamble on an hourly basis that the FRA won’t catch neglected defects. Although, the fines levied for these infractions are so small, they don’t present a credible detriment to a company that makes $24 BILLION in profits every year. I don’t have a whole lot of pics of my job but I thought I’d share a little here. These next three pics show damage on a flat car sustained while being switched from one train to another. The structural damages fall under several FRA violations but the main problem is that the flat walking surface is buckled which creates a safety hazard. This entire wreck is one of the most mind boggling parts of railway economics. Here’s the business model of the yard: “Give us YOUR car, loaded with YOUR commodity or the commodity of your customer. OUR employees shall damage YOUR car in OUR yard then WE shall charge YOU for that damage.” It’s crazy. This is a broken gladhand on a trainline hose. This hose kept a coal train from having brakes. Because the railway companies have scaled back their mechanical repair personnel to the bone, I had to travel an hour and a half to get to this train that was clogging up the mainline for over 5 hours. They cost benefit ratios at these companies is completely off kilter simply because they want to show a different set of numbers to their investors. This category of problem can be hidden behind other numbers more easily explained away. It’s a scam. Here’s a doozy. This is a 14” crack in a draft sill. Prior to spotting this on this car, I had seen several instances where either in the yard during a switch or in a departing train, this type of structural defect resulted in the entire end of the car coming free. If this were to happen at traveling speeds, it could very well derailed a train. Here’s the kicker: the foreman on duty this night—for reasons one can only guess—did not even take my report of the defect or bad order the car. These are the trains that roll through this country every day and night, carrying hazardous and explosive material through your towns and cities. Hide your kids… This is another example of yard damage as well as another example of improper repairs. That bent section carries the cushioning unit. And that flimsy piece of angle iron is all that’s holding up the coupler. This sort of stuff comes in and out all day every day and no one, not even the supposed authorities really give a shit… kooky stuff I watched an undertrained switch conductor derail twelve cars, some filled with hazardous material, in this yard. That car actually stayed on the rails but it’ll need a full tank inspection, a new jacket, and the that body bolster is toast. That’s the stuff I used to do. Now I just laugh at it thinking about how much work some poor underpaid welder down the road is gonna have to do.
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My last bit of blog writing is music related and it proved damned therapeutic. So what the hell, let’s do it again. This time regarding something contemporary as well as something in a far different hemisphere of genre.
I discovered Fust on the All Songs Considered list of best songs of 2025. With anything that is truly good, it took a a couple of listens for me to hear what is actually good about “Spangled,” the first track on Fust’s newest collection Big Ugly. When I did finally hear what makes it good… damn it’s really good. When one speaks of the songwriting behind Fust, one is speaking exclusively of Aaron Dowdy. I don’t know from what Faulknerien/McCarthyien Appalachian mud hill this cat rolled down to get here but he’s got the makings of genius. At first listen, “Spangled” struck me as a throwback track, sounds layered in the mimic of ‘00s alt-country, a genre that produced (along with metric tons of unmitigated garbage) some of today’s greatest folk rock tunes and songwriters, Jeff Tweedy and Ryan Adams among them. If you had played this tune for me and fibbed its release at around 2006, I would have believed you, shocked that I had never heard of it. To be sure, I am hyper-jaded with such sounds. When I performed and wrote songs in this vein, the genre went by many names, Texas Country, Red Dirt Music, Alt-Country, etc.. With very few exceptions, the cookie cutter lost its edge and eventually lost its shape. Which is one of the reasons I waxed skeptical on my first run through “Spangled.” Sonically, there’s nothing groundbreaking here. The vintage amp accompanied by twin melody fiddle work. Tight high-hat vs quiet snare snap beats. Understated but solid bass flow. All hallmarks of the better examples of the genre. And all of it—to my relief—executed to perfection, nevertheless, recorded in way I am generally unfond of, crisp, flat, and void of ambience. Yet the caliber of the songwriting craft displayed here makes me forget that I hate this style of engineering. Aaron Dowdy—whose voice comes in as if José González moved to Appalachia solely to become a hillbilly alcoholic—has written a song that had to creep around in my head before I truly recognized just how exceptional “Spangled” is as a composition. There lies a disjointed narrative within “Spangled.” Wrought with alcohol, death, euphoria, desperation, yearning, injury, aimless religiosity, this song bleeds everything Southern plus a healthy dose of things American in general, including the title, a word not generally used unless announced between the words “star” and “banner.” And Dowdy drives that point with continued hammer strikes in somewhat random places in the lyrics. It’s utterly beautiful in context. The other constant in the lyrics is the number(s) 3-0-5. Once it refers to a hospital room, then a Virginia highway, and then a state (or municipal) precinct. The way Dowdy uses these three syllables is a wonder to behold, constructing a frame of reference across three different scenes, using the mantra as a through line. But what is the line? What is the story? Are we jumping forward and backward, backward and forward? It seems each listener can design the story for themselves. We have a hospitalization (or is it the memory of one? a birth? a trauma?) then an incident on a bridge (vehicular accident or maybe a suicide or even still a simple drunken appreciation of the view from it) then we’re in a drainage/septic ditch wishing the rain would take us away. It’s a clinic in angular psychedelic poetry like nothing I’ve heard in music since songs on Joe Henry’s album Trampoline. Even as Dowdy’s relaxed delivery and top of the beat phrasing sets up a certain mood, he has moments of sheer lyrical gymnastics, which—once one dives into other offerings in the Fust catalog—seems to be a staple of the writer’s art. Some lines stand out as flourish against chords and changes. Such as “I feel like a sparkler/That’s been thrown off the roof.” Or “Wondering who’s the god of that sky?/Who’s the god of memory?” In closing, I have to say this is as perfect a rural rock tune as any that could be written today, especially in a genre that has been left for dead by most intellectually curious listeners. At one point in time, we thought James McMurtry might have a shot at dragging this corner of “country” away from the low intelligence and transparent cynicism of the twenty-first century record industry. Alas, he had his shot and missed. I’m by no means claiming that Fust might save Southern music. But it certainly sounds as if Aaron Dowdy and crew are having a good time frolicking in what’s left of it. A minor hobby of mine is crafting on drift wood. I should not have used the gloss finish on this piece but I’m new at this. I have found the work highly therapeutic and hope to do more in the future.
I haven’t written about music since the failure of a weekly entertainment magazine called SPREAD that I founded and ran nearly single handed back in the early ’00s. Music and I have a strained relationship for myriad reasons. Musical performance produced my only experiences with transcendence, as the term is commonly defined. However, nothing else can so thoroughly sour your love of something as striving to pay your bills with said something. Let’s leave it there.
Now to the subject of this writing and my first real essay on anything musical in over two decades. Are you familiar with a Nashville, TN band named All Them Witches? Not many people are if not connoisseurs of obscure rankings of metal/hard rock bands, which is ironic in that All Them Witches are generally regarded as a multi genre/genre busting group. First allow me to preempt my praise for this band with what I consider their weaknesses which truly boil down to a single weakness. The studio. The aforementioned genre buster label stems from their songwriting craft for sure but their studio work highlights the variability of their interests—including songs recorded with country artist Caitlin Rose and folk artists Erin Rae, fellow members of the Nashville music scene. In a studio setting, armed with all the individual tracks and controls, All Them Witches are a mediocre band at best. Seriously. Their discography is unimpressive, self indulgent, and flat. If I had to describe them in a single word: hollow. Even with the meandering history of personnel which includes some talented multi instrumentalism, even though scaffolded by eclectic influences such as multi national folk music, within the depths of each album, at the core of each collection, lies a cold blank space. I suspect the very diversity of weaponry offered by the studio hinders this band’s actual genius. This actual genius is on full display in a single, COVID forced live performance recorded in 2020, the year live performance was sacrificed on the alter of lockdown mania. The title of this collection testifies to my previous complaint about All Them Witches being a tad boring. The title isn’t as lazy as it first sounds. It’s an inside-baseball nod to lyrics from a previous album, Sleeping Through the War, “Guess I’ll go live on the internet.” Live on the Internet, in my once-but-no-longer professional opinion, is one of the greatest displays of mood and groove in the history of hard rock. I am cognizant of the hyperbolic tone, trust me. I am 53 years old. A lifetime of listening stands behind this statement. This live recording—sans live audience—provides a clinic on what a band in this era of retro over saturation can achieve in a single moment of time. As mentioned previously All Them Witches—a primarily hard rock entity—has employed keyboard, violin, harmonica, etc. over the years in an effort to claim their genre bending status. Not here. Live on the Internet is performed as a traditional three piece. Michael Parks, Jr. on bass and vocals, Ben McLeod on guitar, Robby Staebler on drums. If you’d like see the band play these songs, the entire video of this show is available on YouTube, however, my suggestion is to stick with the audio only version. My argument for greatness here is anchored in sound, nothing to do with sight which is an intended salute to Mikey Allred who engineered, mixed, and mastered this performance. This is not an album review. I will not go song by song stretching for high shelf adjectives to describe these tunes. What I want to do here is spotlight what is missing in music today, what has been missing in music for several decades, and how an almost effortless move on any band or single performer’s part can breath energy back into modern music. The basic move here is one toward honesty in expression. I defy you to find a more honest live performance—in this broad genre—anywhere over the last decade. What we have in Live on the Internet becomes a trio of musical personalities soaring within the sweet spots of their capabilities. This isn’t the mechanical regurgitation of rote phrasing and beat counting perfection. The band creates life on this recording. Without overzealous intent to showboat or dazzle. Each of the players conveys a perfect understanding of each piece and their part within the superstructure of the performance as a whole. McLeod’s basic trinity of whah, delay, and amp born distortion elevates his choices of flourish and rhythm to virtuosic proportion. McLeod has become one of my favorite guitarists of late with his talent for restraint. It is his restraint, his decisions on what not to play versus what he could play or what another player in his position might have chosen to play that has won my awe. At no point on this recording do I ever think, “That was uncalled for.” Full disclosure alert: one of the reasons I am enamored with McLeod’s tools lies in the fact that whah, delay, amp distortion were the foundation of my own sound when I played. After years of crowded pedal boards slowly dropping in population as each do-hicky and whatchacallit died for whatever mysterious reason, the revelation that these three stalwarts were all any true guitar work required became doctrinal for me. McLeod’s use of slide in a hard rock setting also attracts me as I too relied heavily on that tiny brass pipe to illicit my favored sounds. Staebler, with the help excellent sound engineering, has created what is an absolute fortress of consistency behind the beats on Live on the Internet. Any falter in his timing comes as a welcome reminder that he is a living, breathing human source of the percussion. His dynamics are flawless throughout, an achievement rarely accomplished in the modern era of triggers and electronics. His willingness to rely on five or six variable fills is nothing short of glorious revelry in the groove, the mood of the show. As the other half of the rhythm duo, Parks somehow injects soul into a tone so thick one might think he’s a sorcerer of a flavor found only in cheap fantasy novels. A majority of bass sounds in this genre—especially in a three piece configuration—rely so much on a narrow portion of low end that the subtleties required to emote much, if any mood lies out of reach and yet Parks’ playing here paints a fresco across this confined canvas, one that bellows and brawls in it’s beauty and simplicity. Parks’ vocals are the true gem amongst the music, in part because what he does can barely be described as singing at all. His monotone delivery strikes one as if they’re hearing a bygone Jim Morrison who, so weary from working his day job as ditch digger, is simply too exhausted to grant you anything more than the his ultra cryptic, quasi-religious poetry in stilted off kilter cadence. It is absolute genius to hear. It flips on its head the notion that vocals must be the spearhead of the performance. Parks proves that not only do vocals not require outlandish, hamming up but they don’t even need to be musical, per se. In all my declarations that this performance conveys honesty of an overall mood and groove, the songs presented here do in fact meander in sentiment. From the sweeping bleakness of Blood and Sand/Endless Waters to the back-to-basics rock fury of tracks like Saturnine & Iron Jaw, 41, Charles William and Enemy of My Enemy to hypnotic blindsides like Alabaster and Rats in Ruin the songs themselves seem to yearn to break free from the focus of the greater project. Yet the band keeps the entire menagerie on the rails with an iron will. Every tune contains that vein of collective honest intent. Even the farthest off genre wanderings keep the mood when one would think it impossible. The Marriage of Coyote Woman is concrete delta blues that should clash in every way with the majority of the set list. Still, with the simple commitment to clothing the song in the same honesty as the others, the tune melts into the cauldron. In the same way, Open Passageways and Everest, two un-rock tunes, lacking in distortion or drive, become tasteful fringe on a cloak of darkness. Everest, incidentally, stands out as a breather, a guitar solo instrumental in the vein of sweaty 70’s bands who dreamt of Vikings and forest elves. By all accounts this band should not be able to make this recording. In a world where the average attention span has corrupted the artistic output on a global scale, this album should not exist. Even bands who claim to have stuck to their principles—Queens of the Stone Age, Tool, etc—have caved to protocol. I’m not saying that on a certain scale All Them Witches is more musically moral than any other band. What I am willing to state without any doubt is that this work, as a whole, is as honest and true to the the craft of performance as any band could be and is most certainly what every band should strive for. This collection, recorded in one sitting, is an achievement. I commend them, even though my adoration is three years overdue. A hovel leaned against a tree whose unripened fruit hung covered in frost. A thin ribbon of translucent smoke twisted above the opening in the roof. A draft beast stood stomping grumpy stomps on the leeward side of the structure, random gusts tossing the ball of hair that hung over his eyes.
Gartisix, four of his men, and two young priests brought their horses to a halt near the entrance where a thin blade of light cut through the leather flap. One of the clerics led an additional pony, the saddle small and vacant. A stout bearded man, sickle in hand, appeared in the gap and stood for a time while Gartisix and his party approached. The priests spoke with him for a long time while the general and his guards listened. This farmer, whose stance was at first defiant and aggressive, eventually slunk at the shoulders and allowed the clerics into his abode. When the priests emerged again, they escorted a girl, teenager. They had wrapped her in a wooly hide. As they moved past Gartisix toward the horses, her young face turned back at the family that had stepped out as a globule of arms, legs, tattered clothes, and soiled faces of various ages. Tears dripped. Audible sorrows. Gartisix went to the farmer and handed him a gold chain. The runes and symbols on the ovoid pendant attached to the chain declared this man and his family now members of the Durancerot, the cherished and exalted providers of sacrificial virgins to the lord of gods, Hartem. The treasure in the farmer’s hand would forever ensure that his children and their children and on and on would be cared for by royal decree. They who gave a life would never suffer for food or home. And yet as most members of the Durancerot came to understand, no amount of royal generosity could buy back the guilt one gained following the yield of innocents for slaughter. Here’s the draft opening text of my latest endeavor, a fantasy novel that is swiftly growing out of control…. For many years, King Zutophax ruled the lands of the mighty Gustah Mountains and The Vast Plains below them. He possessed the further southern forest kingdoms of Welki and Telki. The dusty lands of Vanzylt and Rymsalsi to the east paid tribute to Zutophax and relied on his protection from the Empire of Onquesta and the kingdom of Poortemta. These two waning powers participated in unending conflict between themselves hence any mustering of the Gustah armies proved rare. North of the mountains, stretching into the eternal unknown of the arctic wastelands, lay the Oliane Steppe, populated by mysterious nomadic tribes and beasts of dark origins. To the west churned the sea.
Integral to the king’s legend was his devotion to the god Hartem and Hartem’s wife, Demnasa. The story told across the far reaches of his influence and beyond placed a young, newly crowned Zutophax in the catacombs beneath Hartem’s temple carved into the dark rock of the Gustah convening face to face with the boisterous deity, the god of both war and peace, and the undeniable lord of his fellow gods. Zutophax pleaded to Hartem’s vanity and promised the god many wars in exchange for years of calm and prosperity. In an additional appeal to Hartem’s wife, Demnasa, the goddess of the harvest and childbirth, purveyor of the energy of all life, Zutophax presented a plan to provide exuberant amounts of what the gods most desired—the worship and sacrifice that roiled the cosmic realm to fuel their strength and magic. The shining armies of the Gustah conquered what remained of the borderlands between the plains and Welki and Telki. He subjugated the twin forest kingdoms and decimated the wild lands of Vanzylt and Rymsalsi. He installed his brothers as princes there. He annexed waterways and fertile lands from the faltering Empire of Onquesta. He attacked Poortempta and removed the kingdom’s mad boy-king from power. Then for decades he played the two nations against one another in order to keep the peace he had promised Hartem and Demnasa. This peace provided much wealth and happiness for the people of The Gustah. Zutophax and his subjects recognized the chief god’s approval as the source of their prosperity and performed endless sacrifices to his name. I am dabbling with a fantasy novel. This is a myth I wrote which is told within the greater plot of the book. I predict I will require more of these as the book continues. In the age before mankind spread across the hide of Kem, when the world teemed with trolls, elves, and other ancient monsters, the gods were young and walked freely in every land, nearly unaware of one another’s existence. In those times, Hartem held only one title, the god of war, whilst his twin brother Hartom embodied the reciprocal principle and form of peace. The twins so loved one another they shared a bride, Demnasa, from whom all life flowed. One day while stirring his inferno in the cauldron beneath Mount Virnouz, Solquan, the god of fire, heard a song carried upon a voice unfathomable in its glory. When finally he discovered the source, the sight of Demnasa struck him dumb and helpless. Solquan bent before her and vowed eternal devotion. Demnasa found the fiery god both beautiful and terrifying, making love to him on the banks of the River Shayphjlib. However, she refused his vow of devotion and fled into a mist of her own making. Solquan, overcome with passion, pursued the goddess to no avail. Day after day, her voice called him either up from the caverns of Virnouz or down from the skies where he replenished the flames of the sun to the banks of the river where their passions and magic merged time and time, over and over. At the completion of each coupling, Demnasa vanished again in a haze that seeped from the very hide of Kem. In frustration, Solquan sought out the god of spiders, Yatsu. In exchange for the deadly prick of poisonous heat Yatsu installed in her children’s fangs, she wove Solquan an endless spool of fine web thread. On the occasion of their next coitus, unbeknownst to her, Solquan tied the web round Demnasa’s waist and let her flee. At dusk, after following the trail of web, he discovered her lair in the soul of the forest Gargoom where she and Hartom made love on a bed of white flowers and ferns. Solquan silently cursed Hartom and fled in aimless madness through the wilderness. The next morning, Solquan awoke with his jealousy transformed to hate. He resolved to stalk Hartom and slay him. He swore to take Demnasa as his bride and from their union establish a glorious kingdom across the whole of Kem. To aid him in this search, Solquan forged the moon in his volcanic furnace and hurled it into the night sky as an ashen lantern so that he and his elven servants might spot his rival in the night. As per their arrangement, Hartom possessed Demnasa in the daylight and Hartem in the dark. On this night, as did all of the inhabitants of Kem, Hartom stood in a clearing, gazing in awe at the celestial oddity that had interrupted his deer hunt. Solquan and his elves set upon Hartom and smote him with fire and molten metals. Without the prowess or inclination to fight them, Hartom surrendered to the heat and released his spirit. The phantom essence of the god of peace escaped the attack and slithered about the land in search of Hartem who lay in the arms of Demnasa deep in her sanctuary among the trees. When Hartem awoke, he felt instantly the soul of his twin intertwined within him and he cried tears of blood onto the white flowers of Demnasa’s abode. She begged him to explain his sorrow and when he described to her the visions of Hartom’s death in the fires and liquid metal, Demnasa collapsed in guilt before Hartem. His rage at her confession unleashed a charge of cosmic magic that roiled the tribes of elves, trolls, and fanged apes into frenzies of murder and conquest that lasted a thousands years, forever referred to in the histories as The First Cull. The Cull eliminated entire populations of creatures who once dominated the world. During the war, Hartem and Solquan fought many battles that ended in draw after draw. As the wars and his battles with Solquan grew more vicious and violent and Hartem healed his wounds in lengthy trances and slumbers, Demnasa pleaded to the soul of Hartom for calm and reconciliation in the heart of his brother. Lack of progress in her appeals led Demnasa to steal away and offer conditions to a defiant Solquan who demanded nothing less than her betrothal. Demnasa chronicled for the god of fire the results of their mating so many years before. His fire now moved within all the creatures that came after their coupling. So robust in its mingling, his fires and her life giving magic created a new creature now creeping in the shadows of the wilds. She called them men. If she could only halt the destruction and the ill between her two lovers, the age of men might produce a world worthy of unifying the gods in peace. When she had gone back to Hartem to massage the presence of Hartom within him, Solquan investigated her claims that his fire lived in all new things alive. He found these men and he felt a pride in their existence. He indeed witnessed his fire in all the new life that somehow thrived amidst the chaos of the old, cold creatures’ conflicts. He realized his love for Demnasa, even though not founding the glorious kingdom he had envisioned, blazed nonetheless. And so he sent word to Hartem of his hope for an end to the violence between them. The dispatch awakened the spirit of his twin now entirely entangled with his own and he agreed to end the fight. Demnasa revealed men to Hartem who quickly foresaw their potential and he took up his wife to the heavens and set about building a place from which he could observe this blossoming new world.
The section of this site labeled “Chrysalis” is completely fucked. I have tried many times to fix it but it’s a loss. The posts still exist and I am currently using many of them as jumpstarts to write full length works—the previous post “Soteria Road” began its life there. When I first created the Scintilla project, the idea was to write very short pieces—accompanied by art or photographs—that somehow stood on their own in either esoteric or pragmatic ways. Admittedly, as they sit now, the majority read as simply incomplete. However, there are a few that work as they are now. Descent is one of them. When I reread this for the first time in a few years, it, pleased me to discover its elegant completeness. There are dogs on the trail. I count their prints while waiting for her to change clothes. I suggest the hike can wait until after lunch but she insists. I gesture to the silt on the path. She stands for a moment with her head aslant. I can’t see her face. With an abrupt sling of her wrist she tells me she’ll be fine. She says it’s time to move on. The very words her brother told her a month ago. We stride on our heels in descent of the soft rail drawn in a seine wave across the face of the cliff. The beams of the young sun burn opaque and appear supported in space by the spear tip shapes of the pines. She is ahead of me. I’ve spent much of the hike focused on her ass in the denim shorts but also checking her composure. There’s no trembling. No skittishness. Until the bark. It echoes through the cathedral of the ravine as if uttered from something supernatural. She freezes. An ocean tide of air moves the trees then fades into a silence as still as her pose. Another bark. She turns to me, the wig out of place just enough to be noticeable, and she shakes her tears at me as if she fears she will never be able to move again.
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